Here's the other class picture taken... So, azhari, your face can be seen clearly here. ;-p

national service anyone?

Apparently, there are people claming that national service is actually made compulsary for everyone. How true is that? I don't really believe it, however it somehow scares me in some way. So here's a little recap on the national service craze...

Thursday, 26th August 2004
Read a little physics in the morning, and it was then my handphone rang. An unidentified number, but nevertheless i picked up the call and it was edward! Using kian ming's phone i guess... Well, something unexpected, he informed me that we can actually check our status for the coming national service program. Of course, he asked me to check mine and tell him what's the results. I didn't, wanted to, but afraid. Afraid that i might be chosen. 3 months !? Never i'm gonna spend 3 months with just physical training, eating spicy foods everyday. Besides, in that 3 months my dad might come home to visit and i will never want to miss a chance to spend his a week or two holiday here. Second, I plan to learn driving. And third, concentrate on my piano exams next year. Well, conrad called soon after that and also to inform me about the national service thingy. Lucky him, obviously not chosen! Oh well, had the feeling of checking out my status, but at last did not.

Friday, 27th August 2004
Rather sleepless night as the thought of national service still linger in my mind. Finally, i braced up myself and decided to just call the number to find out. First thing in the morning, slightly later than 8.30 am, i stormed out of my room and reached for the telephone. Dialled the number, but it was busy. Dialled again, busy. After several futile attempts, i decide to try again later. There was once i got through, but it seems that no one was picking up the phone. Nope, it isn't working. This has definately increased the tension. Alas, managed to get the operator, and as i was giving my ic number, my hand trembled and... the answer is, not selected! Superb, i breath a sigh of relief, and almost immediately, i sms-ed conrad, asking him to help check my status to confirm, just in case i read my ic number wrongly. While waiting for his reply, i also phoned my mom, gave her the number and asked her to help check my status (without telling her i called them once!). Conrad's reply came some time later, and it's also a no! Thrid confirmation came later, and my mom initially tricked me, saying it's like striking in a lottery. That didn't work of course. hehe... Without knowing, i got to know that loke's sister also helped me check it too. Hm~

Expect nothing and you will never be disappointed.

There are various personality traits such as paranoia ("People are picking on me"), social avoidance ("I'd rather cross the street than meet that person"), traits that reflect cynical mistrust ("People lie to get ahead"), anger, and angry behaviour ("I often have to get rough with people") and neurotic behaviours. So, which type are you? Apparently, I'm sort of being bothered by something which has certainly refrained me from doing things, which made it rather hard for me to concentrate on anything. This answers to the question of why am i crapping over here.
Well, regarding the personality thingy above, i would catagorize myself under paranoia. Yup, extreme suspicion that is. Basically, i'm easily distracted over unnecessary things and i feel extremely guilty over the slightest things. I'm afraid that someday a close friend would betray me, or a normal one would have bad thoughts about me. Fear that a teacher would have bad impression about me, worried if someday people would just avoid me. Scared of losing friends, and worst still, being back-stabbed. Afraid to be persona non grata. What if a ravager suddenly appears in your life, causing a whole lot of damage? I would then be as restless as what you call, a flibberigibbet. Well, you might be a micrometer away from getting hold of a persons trust, but as anything can happen between the cup and the lip, the person might just lose all the trust in a go. What if you accidentally opened the Pandora's Box and suddenly everything turned upside down? On the other hand, having trusted friends by your side would certainly be therapeutic. Which is why it is sometimes better to just concede when we're stuck in a conflict. No point arguing over matter which is just a storm in a teacup. What more can this destructive habit of mine do? Who cares anyway? - that's... a rhetorical question.

Say cheese...

Well, let's start of with the unpleasant part first... Again, i've been day-dreaming a lot lately... Too much too think, question marks sprouting one after another. But it's ok, i'll get over it, i guess... Anyway, nothing much or should i say, nothing major happened lately. Library duty today, and whopps... i didn't really do my job. I was busy struggling to complete my physics work as we were supposed to hand in the assignment before recess, initially. Well, later found out that pn. norehan gave us more time and the deadline will be on next week. Phew~ Homeworks are simply piling up and have reached dizzying heights. Went for tuition after school - martin. Waited dreadfully for the 114 bus, and it's so despicable when one bus just came, and drove away. When we finally got up the bus, we were packed like sardines throughout the journey. My back was aching, my legs were tired, and it was darn warm in there, so sweaty and sticky all over. Yucks, reached there around 1.15 pm, and just gobbled down my lunch as there isn't much time left. Got in the class in the nick of time, and today, siiva was kindda reproachful or what? Venting his frustration, scolding us because of our attitude and all, and i felt guilty as me myself didn't complete the task given. As soon as the class ended, i rushed out and paced my way pretty fast to the opposite side of the road. Saw a car which i first thought was my mom, but only to realise after glaring at the plate number that it wasn't. Hmp~ Bumped a few ol' friends while waiting... first was nuraini, then irda and nurul nadia. Mom came not long after that.
Let's move back. Basically, this post isn't in chronological order. Well, a few weeks ago, our class have been discussing about the school magazine, whether to choose coloured pages or just plain black and white ones. Well, it definately stirred a small debate among us and many didn't agree on the coloured ones coz we weren't financially sound? I don't know? Eventually we did took the colour page (i suppose so, hehe) and 5 ringgit is to be collected from each of us. Thursday (if i've not mistaken), our class took some snap shots at the roof top? It was add maths period then and all of us was hoping that the photographing session will last throughout the whole lesson, lol. Our purpose having the pictures taken there was to capture the view of KL, but it didn't though. Detoured around the place, and there were zephyrs - accompanied by the burning sunlight. Heh, it was fun posing around and as there were about to snap the pictures, i couldn't resist laughing - which is why i looked amazingly "happy" in the pictures. After taking the class photo, kiat hwa suggested that it would be great if we take pictures while standing on the roof. So, off we - chee wen, kiat hwa, ooi shin and i went and climbed the roof, sat there, and edmund helped us snap the group photo. Wonder whether i should post it here... better think twice. :-p It was great, yeah. Wonder how is it going to be after crossing the gates of school life... One thing for sure is that i'm gonna miss the school... the friends, and the teachers...


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