Some small kidz are playing fireworks here. yeah, cny's eve. In the previous years, we children used to stay up late at night to watch television programmes. Well, i'm here now chatting all the way. Reunion dinner isn't really reunion dinner this year. hmp, last night i slept around 5 something in the morning, struggling to finish up my physics folio. Anyway, i wasn't that sleepy at that time, and at least, it's done now, i guess. Still there's the group work to be done...

i'm just plain bored. Tomorrow, it's going to be an even boring day. Today, i feel like an ediot again. nahh, my feeling always changes. These few days, as usual, i have been throwing tantrums at everyone. Woke up this morning and the first thing came to my mind is 'what am i going to do after this'. Did some work but slept alot. Searched a little on the net for information on the physics project, and got some useful information, if i have not mistaken. hm, i'm still thinking whether to follow my friends to mines or not... haven't made a decision till now, i hate making desicions, haha..

yes, at last i get to publish posts again. Tried a few times to get in just now but to no avail. Today, is just like any other days, but of course, there's still a little differences. It's the last day of school before the cny holidays, and yeah, i'm expecting a boring new year. Well, without my dad at home, we couldn't visit any relatives which stays far away. My mom doesn't know the way. Only if my cousins are going, then MAYBE we'll just tumpang like one of the previous years (this is the second year i'm celebrating cny without my dad at home). Tons of homework, but i don't know where to start first. Stayed back for ?, nothing, anyway, it came to my mind that i don't have anything to do at home, so why not spend a little more time in school. hmm... really sad and dissapointed that my dad went back to china to work. Last night, at last, he gave me my pmr reward, in the form of money, as usual. Well, he didn't give me just like that, he told my mom to put 'em in my savings account.

I guess, umm, dad's waiting to board the plane right now. Well, time flies, one week is gone, and he's flying back to beijing for work. sigh~ at first, i didn't know whether to follow him to kl sentral or not, i'm afraid i will cry. I really enjoyed it when we were in pangkor. Hopefully, we can go somewhere else this coming may. when we're apart, we will only know how to appreciate the time we had together. Supposed to stay back for sports practice today, but didn't. During the last period, had some bad gastric pain, and of course, decided to go home and rest instead. Mrs lee sent me home, ate some instant noodle, and went to bed. When dad woke me up, i didn't realise that it's already dinner time. We had our, ahem, advanced reunion dinner and my appetite wasn't there at that moment. That's what will happen to me after taking gastric medicine.

haa... pkbm training today. In fact, i marched like a jerk - for some reasons, ??? Mom fetched me home. After that i followed mom and dad to mid valley. Came back home and had a small barbeque. All in all, it's not that bad, just tiring, especially after pkbm. Imagine marching under the scorching sun. A very busy day, my cousin and her children are now in my house visiting too. Dad is flying back to Beijing tomorrow night. sigh~ :( yeah, boring cny approaching!

ah, just came back from pangkor. Overall, it's so-so, well, not bad. The sea tour was marvelous, where we get to snorkel, the land tour isn't bad, just that the routes they use is nightmare - up and down, and several 90 degrees, even 360 degrees turns. That friday, i wore my school uniform all the way from smkbts to p. pangkor. I really enjoy the sea tour. That was the first time i went snorkeling. And, i really like it! We jumped in the sea which is full of colourful fishes, big and small, swimming around. wow, i even get to touch a life sea cucumber and a life coral too. I brought along one big stack of books, well, obviously, homeworks. Didn't manage to finish all of them though. Still have one essay to be done which is need to be handed in for english tomorrow. ah, snorkeling is fantastic! i'll never hesitate to do it again!

I've been far too careless this few days. This afternoon, when i was frying an egg, my finger accidentally touched the frying pan. ouch, a patch of 'melted-like' skin now. Yesterday, i banged my forehead at the pc when i was bending to take a piece of paper. Now, even when i frown, i could feel the slight pain. Last holiday, the standing fan's blade slashed my skin and i accidentally closed my mom's car door with my finger inserted in it. Luckily, i didn't crack my finger nail. Went for mr. lee's add-maths class in the evening. Today's teaching is bit confusing, but i'm working hard on it! I've been publishing posts daily so far, but i won't be posting any for tomorrow and saturday. Well, short holiday in pangkor and i'll be going there right after school tomorow.

Today isn't just the same as other days before this, i guess. Sometimes i think staying in bts just isn't my channel. Dad came back from china today, and he's going back one day right before the school holidays. Just imagine how's the auspicous festival is going to be like without the bread-winner at home. B-O-R-I-N-G! What to do? work is work. After school, a few of us had a meeting with pn faridah hanum. I was chosen as the cheif editor for bulletin pss. In my point of view, maybe i deserve it. However, i'm not interested in holding any posts. To me, positions in the organization chart aren't important, except for positions in exams of course. Being ordinary is good enough. Well, don't know why i was dumb at that moment and didn't protest it. Maybe, giving the post to someone more compatible is a good choice...

man, enuff frustrated for today. For sports practice, we did shot putt and 100 metres sprint. After it was all over, i was really not feeling well. hm, a little nauseated i guess. Futhermore, i was really lethargic and was reluctant to walk to the bus-stop. While waiting, loke stopped by, and offered to drive us home. Didn't follow him anyway, wen chin denied to do so. hehe, so we were there, sitting beside the big drain, hoping for the bus to arrive soon. Soon, it started drizzling, and the raindrops become heavier. Eventually, we sat a cab home. Stopped at the al-amal restaurant, because wen chin is going for tuition. That time it already stated to rain cats and dogs. I ran, mostly walked home and arrived home drenched to the skin. I quickly took a bath as my dad always says take bath as soon as possible if u get caught up in the rain. The electricity current broke off a few times, and, my youngest brother hid the paper that mrs lee asked me to type. If i lose it, i'm dead meat. He made me panic that i searched the whole house so many times. Somemore, it was dark at that time. Two times i was typing on the pc, and both times, something went wrong and it was left unsaved. Had to do it all over again. Say, i better get a punching bag to punch out all my anger. Yesterday, mom said she saw foxy, our house dog which accidentally ran out of our house and didn't return at the playground. She tried to catch up with the lady with foxy but when she came down from the car, the lady was nowhere to be found. hm, i've been thinking about this since then. Well, it a pure breed wired-haired fox terrier and i guess, it's sort of a waste to lose him. Before this, everyone who came to my house called it as 'toy dog'. I just woke up just now, after sleeping for quite long.

This morning we had to line up like soldiers. As usual, boring speech from the pengetua and when it's pkbm day, there is his real funny commands. haha, i giggled when he shouted, i guess, some of the teachers in front had noticed me. Yen nee was beside me, she was busy joking about the teachers and so on. In class, i have been laughing alot, especially during est lesson. BUT, i laugh alot doesn't mean that i'm happy. haha, right towards the end of the lesson, some of us were thinking whether to stay back for pkbm marching or not. Many looked out to the sky, hoping that it'll rain. Finally, we decided not to stay back and instead, do our biology work in the evening. By the time pek mun and i walked out from school, the bus had already left. Fortunately, may jie's father was the another alternative. Came home, play, sleep and not long after i woke up, may suddenly came up my stairs. I was shocked at first, didn't know that she was already here. Then, melisa came followed by pek mun. Off we start to do our group work and we ended around 7 something. Hopefully, mr. lim won't ask us to redo a new piece.

Piano lessons, nothing much. Came home, did some work and started to play worms world party. haha, the addiction is here again. Bout 8.30 loke came, followed by tam. Back to school work. Again, didn't completed it, maybe it's 80 percent done. They went back at 10.15, with loke walking back home. hm, second thought i still have some school work to be done. hehhe

Another dental appointment this afternoon. Today i got my braces removed, at last. Now, i have to wear a retainer instead for another year. Maybe because it's my first time wearing it, i'm still not used to the feeling. It's hard for me to chew and i can't really pronounce some words out properly. Just now, loke and tam came to my house to do our physics group work. However, didn't manage to finish it up and they went home at 10.30. The whole time loke was busy playing with my hamster. Most probably, we'll continue our work tomorrow night.

...second post of the day... Events happening at night are more meaningful. First, jarrod called me from russia, well, juz a few minutes chat, bills are not cheap. I'm glad we're keeping in touch. Just now, had some chat with afiq, now with izyan. Both of them are leaving bts for boarding schools, in some peoples opinion, brighter future for them there. :(, although i have other stuffs to ponder on, this takes it all for now. They're among my first few close malay friends. Thank God, i managed to get their autographs today. They gave somewhat touching and sad goodbyes. Afiq took photographs with 4 science 1 and a few teachers, he said to me that we'll meet again if we get to enter the quiz perdana sejarah like what we did in the previous year. hey, till we meet again!

Wasn't feeling that well this morning again. The whole day my hands were cold like ice. Came back from school today with lots of question marks in my head, as usual. Weekends are here again and i'm thinking how to spend them. School ended at 12.30 but the bus only came at 1 something. When we went up the bus, there were few spaces left for us to sit. For the first time, we chose the last row right behind where three of us - me myself, pek mun and wen chin can sit together. Sitting at the back is, well cool! We were joking when the bus suddenly came to a bump on the road and our bums went floating in the air for a moment. haha, i laughed till my stomach crammed and wen chin was busy observing edward when there's another bump. Had some sports house meeting today. They made some changes this year and students were swapped from one team to another. Pkbm day is on monday, which means we going to line up like soldiers in the morning. Now, i have to stay back on monday, tuesday and wednesday, three days in a row. Futhermore, i don't feel like sitting public bus alone too, that's the problem. Well, we'll see how it goes in the time to come.

Right after pn. siti ainon let us go off today, me and a few classmates which are sitting the school bus rushed out to catch up with the bus. Went to universal for tuition today. Just because i'm late, i didn't get to sit with my friends. Anyway, i didn't inform them that i'm coming today and maybe they're quite suprised to see me there. As usual, mr. lee's teaching is full of jokes that made us laugh our heads off. His class is good, only that sometimes he explain things very fast. The class ended later than it's supposed to be and when i walked home it's already drizzling.

Another sleepy physics lesson today. Sitting right at the back so couldn't really hear what the teacher says. When i came back, i was really sleepy. In the evening, i went to tasik permaisuri with tam. Supposed to bring some hydrilla leaves for a biology experiment and we've to scoop them up from the lake there. By the time i reached home, mom's already at the dinning table eating. Having some problems with my braces again, which is kindda irritating. Hopefully, mom can make an dental appointment tomorrow.

Somehow another awful day for me. Went to school, came back from school, ate lunch, slept and dinner is going to be ready soon. Got to know that dad won't be able to come back during cny. :(, yet another boring cny at home! Actually we planned to go to pangkor during the holidays, rooms were booked, money was paid. Most probably, mom's going to push forward or postpone the stay, or maybe, just cancel it. Till now, i still couldn't spot where my watch is. hm, mrs. lee read out my piece of essay for the class to listen today. Got back my book, and the pages were shinning with red inks, and, a dissapointing 29/40 score. Can't blame it, that's what you'll get if u only mention 2 main points, 'garbage in, garbage out'.

... wasn't feeling well in school the whole day. First lesson for est today and first time of the term we went back at 1.40. Helped out mrs. lee a little at the end of the lesson, after that she asked me whether i would like a lift home. Thank God i chose the right choice to follow her back. When we came out of the school, the surrounding was all empty, which means, my bus had already left. Just read another email from faraway friend, jarrod. Got some of his advices, i guess they make sense too. hm, i'm mixed up. Mom's birthday today, we went out for dinner and i footed the bill. haha, couldn't get any cake coz dad's not here. Anyway, i earned some money working during the holidays and nothing wrong spending them right?

Woke up late for piano lessons this morning. As usual, when i'm sleepy, i perform badly. Lots of mistakes when playing the ornaments part, eventhough i've practised that piece many many times. The teacher told me to repeat some parts a few times too. Gone beserk and simply played out the melody. kekeke, forgot how to do my theory, in fact, piano theory from grade 6 onwards is really boring. Supposed to write out the voice part of the melody and whatever crap it is. Anyway, just some careless minor mistakes in my answers. oh yah, got my certificate for grade 6 pratical also, i almost forgot about it at first. Came home, did abit of work, print out some articles for est, and sleep! Mom went out for a wedding dinner and we kids just stayed at home and watch tv, that's the tradition.

Weekends are here and it's a good time to rest. Slept for don't know how many hours, but it seems more like hibernation. Continued reading my story book and just dozed off. The computer man came to repair the printer today, and had to pay bout 160 bucks for the printhead. Went to mc donald's for dinner and after that, we went to pasar malam. Nothing interesting there, i don't really like night markets though. Didn't saw any friends there except loke. Guess it's because i went there too early. Overall, my day was really really boring.

Not really in the mood today, but laugh alot in the bus. There're little kids in the bus, mostly from sktm, my primary school! Some indian gal, wondering what my braces are. They stared at me and asked a few questions. man, i hate being the centre of attraction. Anyway, gonna get the braces off in... another week. If only my mom is not working tomorrow, i would have asked her to push the appointment to tomorrow. There isn't really any major homeworks today, which is sort of annoying. When there is, they come in big bunches at a time. Now the weekend's here but there aren't any asignments.

It's a suprise there's no asignments from teachers today. Maybe it's rest day for us. I came back, had my lunch and went to sleep. Slept late yesterday, and was reluctant to wake up this morning. This afternoon when we're in the school bus, wen chin, pek mun and me myself joked among ourselves and laughed our heads off. In the bus, wen chin was busy counting the number of humps we went through on the road. If i've not mistaken, there're about 20+ of them. hehe..

homeworks. My group was abit confused about the biology presentation. Manage to ask a few friends through the phone and finally understand what mr. lim meant (i guess?). We're supposed to present them on mahjong papers tomorrow and i heard that who did not complete his/her asignments will be kicked out of 4 science 1. That's the main motivation that made us did our work. Had some gotong-royong cleanning up the library after school today. It was really tiring as there's dust everywhere and just imagine how big is the library - including the media room. When i came back, i wasn't feeling well. Just ate some maggie and slept till 7 something.

Slept quite late yesterday. The cat pushed the hamster's cage again and the pine shavings were scattered everywhere. Had to use the vaccum cleaner to clean them before going to bed. Quite a number of homeworks today, especially biology, i don't even know what to do. Anyway, this can't be compared with my brother. He came back yesterday and complained that he has four homeworks to do on the first day of school. Suppose to attend the accounts tuition today, but decided to start next month cause my friends aren't going and i'm kindda lazy at the same time too. Haven't started my homework, maybe later, i'll take a nap first, hehe.

*yawn*... first day of school today. It was fun at first, had a new bus driver, and we joked among friends about her. hahha, during assembly, those who got straight/almost straight a's were called out to the stage to shake hands with the pricipal. As promised, cikgu syed alwi also gave us our rewards for getting 'a' for living skills. Kind of bored, no teachings today. However, i'm sure there're tons of homework awaiting for us in the time to come. Well, i believe that is no honeymoon year for us. Feel bit 'different' in class too, duno... After school, went to work for a while and walked back home at 4 o'clock. Hopefully, i could get my salary tomorrow.

Last day of work today. Tomorrow school's gonna reopen. This holiday i got my first ever working experience, which is sort of good. But second thought, i regreted working. Wasted my precious time which i allocated for reading. Now, the holidays are all over. Wonder when i'll have the time to continue reading my story books. Woke up at 6.30 today and i have to drag myself to get up, and have to wake up one hour earlier tomorrow. It's great that school's reopening and i don't have to be feeling bored again at home.

man, real fed up with this blog thingy. Got crashed down for days, only manage to publish blogs today. Well, new year's here, bye 2002. I've learnt alot throughout the whole year. Time flies, it's gonna be my fourth year in bts. It feels like i've just entered form 1 yesterday. Resolutions? nahh... i don't have any specific resolutions, there're tons of 'em in my mind. My resolutions change from time to time. I've always thought of becoming the best writer, but i guess it'll be in my dreams. hehe, another piano exam next year (i mean this year), passing it will push me to grade 8. In other words, another tough moment...